I sit here with my laptop on my lap. It's just after 7 on a Saturday morning and I've been up for 2 hours. The one day a week I can sleep in. So why am I awake? Why are my thoughts so loud? I wake up in a start with a sick feeling in my stomach. So much going on...so much happening. Yet everything in limbo.

I'm nervous about Joe going to the Philippines in January. We recently found out that the tribes he is going to are very against tattoos. The only people that had tattoos were head hunters in the past and they are associated with thiefs and criminals now. These tribes are still so old fashioned that, unless the have time to get to know you, if they see your tattoos you will be ostracized at best. Joe is covered in tats. All down his arms, his legs, his back. I'm just so thankful that he didn't get any up on his neck like his plan was. He'll have to wear long sleeve shirts and pants while they get accustomed to him. It's 115 degrees there on a cool day. He's also going to be 50 miles away from where there were recent kidnappings. After everything that's happened in Iraq today...with the big hanging and stuff...chances are the terrorist groups are gonna be all riled up.

I'm scared to death. I know he's supposed to be going. He's only going to be gone for 3 weeks. But what am I going to do if anything happens to him? He's the kind of guy that if he sees an injustice, he won't stand for it. I can't tell him my fears. He needs my support right now. Not my whining. That's what ya'll are for.

Did you know that Al Qu*ada trains in the Philippines? Did you know that they hate westerners? Did you know that there are numerous travel warnings against going there for westerners?

I have to get my (probably completely irrational) fears out somewhere. I can't talk to him about them. How am I supposed to put on a happy face and support him? Anybody? Anybody?

God bless us, everyone...(and stuff)

So it's Christmas Eve. My parents and brother (and family of course) left an hour ago. Our street is lined with luminaria and is amazingly beautiful. The lights are lit and the stockings are stuffed. In other words? I get to take a rest now.

Merry Christmas to all of you. I hope that your day is filled with love and squishy stuff. The good squishies.

Good way to spend a friday

Yeah me! I've been tagged! Thanks, Slinger. This one sounds kinda fun though.

Popcorn or Candy? Both actually. Popcorn with butter and M & M's thrown in while it's still hot.

Name a movie you've been meaning to see forever. The Indiana Jones series. Yep...I missed them all.

Steal one costume from a movie for your wardrobe. Angelina Jolie from Tomb Raider. Only if I get the body to go with it though.

Your favorite film franchise is: The Matrix trilogy. Keanu is smokin.

Invite five movie people over for dinner. Who are they? Why'd you invite them? What do you feed them? Keanu Reeves, Matthew McConaughey, Salma Hayek, Halle Berry and Drake from Drake & Josh (don't judge me!). I invited them because they're hot. I would feed them nachos and beer. And me. ;-)

What is the appropriate punishment for people who answer cell phones in the movie theater? Take their clothes and make them stand in front of the theatre while we throw things at them.

Choose a female bodyguard: Ripley from Aliens, Mystique from X-Men, Sarah Connor from Terminator 2, The Bride from Kill Bill, or Mace from Strange Days. Sarah Connor from Term 2. She rocked.

What's the scariest thing you've ever seen in a movie? I don't watch many scary movies but when I was in junior high I was forced to watch Freddy. The couple I watched it with went into the bedroom and *ahem* got comfortable while it was on so I was all alone. Didn't like that too much.

Your favorite genre (excluding "comedy" and "drama"). Let's go with "artsy". That's a genre, right?

You are given the power to greenlight movies at a major studio for one year. How do you wield this power? I cannot beat Slinger's answer. Check his out and pretend I said it first!

Bonnie or Clyde? Definately Bonnie. She's a badass. I love tough chicks.

I'm going to tag Robin and DD. Merry Meme!

There is nothing sweeter...

than looking in your mirror into the back seat and watching your child bopping and singing along to the music.

I never knew it was possible to love someone so much.

Addicted!

Gee, thanks, Mr. Nice Guy. Just what I needed...another way to pass the time besides working! Check it out!

Making a list and checking it twice...

Yeah! A bullet post! Just what you always wanted, right? Right. Here we go!

Things I have not done for Christmas yet

• Decorated upstairs. The downstairs is done. The tree (real, of course) is up and prettyfied. However, my upstairs living areas are very very bare.
• Made cookies with the boys. Yeah, I suck.
• Sent out cards. They are made though so I guess that's a step in the right direction.
• Finished shopping. I thought I was done. I wasn't. I hate shopping.
• Paid any bills for December. So this isn't really a Christmas one but it is what it is. I just have not had time to sit down and do it. Our creditors love us right now.
• Drank too much spiked egg nog. However, I did have my first jello shot. That's gotta count for something, right?
• Planned any part of Christmas Eve dinner OR Christmas dinner. And why must we celebrate with a different side of the family on each day? And why must they always be at my house?
• Cleaned. Once again, not specifically for Christmas but I'm blaming my lack of motivation on the Baby Jesus. I'm trying to recreate the smell of the manger.

Things I have done for Christmas

• Wrapped gifts. My kids are spoiled. So are my nieces and nephews. And I'm broke. Did I mention that?
• Bought and decorated a tree. We did not cut down our own, however. Snow and cold sucks.
• Ordered Joe's present offline. Hopefully it will be here in time. If not? I don't care. I'll give him a different gift and between you and me, he'll probably like that better. *wink wink*
• Huh...I'm running out here. Apparently, I'm not nearly as ready as I thought. Where did 2006 go???
• Wished all of you a Merry Christmas. (see that? i'm taking credit for having it done WHILE actually doing it! that's creativity right there!)

Tagged

Gee, thanks, Robin!

The point of this meme? To take a picture of yourself right now and post it to your blog. This is teenage boy and me, being really excited to be tagged.

Let's see...who should I tag...Oh Slinger, you're it!

Changing the title 'cause Robin said I should.

It's been a week since my last post? Huh. Yeah. Sorry about that. You'll be happy to know that Little Boy is feeling much better now. He did christen Joe's new truck with puke. That was lovely. So glad Daddy decided to pick him up. ;-)

Teenage Boy rocked it on Friday. There were 20 candidates and only 2 got A+ on the test. And of course, my boy was one of the two! Even with a horribly sprained ankle. And he competed in a tournament on Saturday where he free sparred (kicked the crap out of each other) the kid who is ranked number one in their division in the country. He lost, but only by one point. A very good weekend for him over all.

Work has been interesting. Lots of stuff going on. Mostly stuff that sucks. I'm hoping that I'm making entirely too big of a deal out of it.

On the upside, I picked up all of our layaway from a big box store today so Christmas shopping is done, for the most part.

I think that's it. Although it does seem like I'm forgetting to tell you something. Let me see...what could it be...seems like it might have been kind of important...hmmmm...oh yeah, that's right


HOUSEGUEST MOVED OUT!!! I AM FREE TO WALK AROUND SANS BRA AGAIN!

Do you hear that noise? That's the angels singing.

That is all.