Thursday, May 22, 2008

A new beginning

Oh, my girl, how amazing. She is beautiful. I am so incredibly happy for you. Words do not express.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

The state of things

Sticking with statements because it's just easier.

Dr. appointment today.
Hemoglobin and hematocrit actually going down. This is not good.
Cannot do surgery right now because I am so anemic and my body is so taxed with that there is a real possibility I would not make it through surgery.
The original plan of surgery on Monday was before my latest round of tests.
Cannot have blood transfusion to correct the anemia because of the type of anemia I have. My blood will not bond with transfused blood.
Non bonding blood = non clotting blood.
Non clotting blood + surgery=bad bad things for Jessie

So what's the plan?

Have to take mega doses of iron and other assorted pills and try to get the anemia resolved on its own.
Once that is resolved will have biopsy.
What that says will determine next step.
Biopsy tentatively scheduled for June 13. Depending on my stupid blood, of course.

So that's where we are. Still knowing nothing. Oh wait...we do know something else.

Dr. said she is 47% confidant that I don't have cancer. She came up with that number only because of my age. Apparently that's pretty much what I've got going for me right now.

How about them odds?

Monday, May 19, 2008

Long story short...

Severe Anemia of unknown origin.
Other basic medical fun thanks to PCOS.
Stat ultrasound performed last Friday.
Mass of unknown origin with massive blood supply (hence anemia, I'm assuming) located in uterus.
Not presenting as a fibroid or a polyp because of lack of shadowing (WTF does that mean exactly?)
Surgery scheduled for today. Of course, our secretary is on vacation so have to reschedule for next week sometime. Dr. not happy about reschedule. Throws around words like time and essence and cancer.

Note to self. Do not google link between PCOS and uterine cancer. Bad idea.

Trying to see this as an instant weight loss tool. Mass is size of grapefruit. Imagine how much that must weigh!

Kinda losing my shit a little bit.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

The things that drive me nuts

1. Men. No explanation necessary, I'm sure.

2. Work. Once again, see explanation to #1.

3. Teenagers. The sighs. The eye rolls. The huffing. The puffing.

4. Kindergarteners. The sighs. The eye rolls. The huffing. The puffing. All with added crying!

5. Rain and snow. I know I live in Montana. I'm sick of whining about it. It's time for sunshine. Seriously.

Things that I'm loving...

1. My kids. Along with the sighs and the eye rolls and the huffing and the puffing and the crying, they are still damn cute and funny. If not for them, you would have read about me in the paper a long time ago.

2. Beer. Wine. Everything that gets me through the night. ;-)

3. The weather forecast is calling for sunshine and 85 this weekend. If that is true, I will be on a lake on a boat with Ky. And beer. Even though we will probably frighten everyone around with our pasty asses, it will be worth it. Oh so worth it.

The weather forecast had better be right...

Friday, May 09, 2008

May 9, 2008

Dear Mother Nature,

I understand your job is hard. I know it's impossible to make everyone happy. I get it. Would you like me to rub your feet for you? Get you a nice cup of coffee? Tea? ANYTHING? I would do anything for you, you know. Just to get that little smile on your face.

However. I do have a little bone to pick with you. It's May 9. Supposed to be springtime, right? Supposed to be sunny? Can you please explain to me why I'm looking out my window and watching the snow fall? Basically hon, if you're not gonna step it up, BITE MY ASS.

Love and Kisses,